Story of my life.
Like, whoa now killing it.
Water intake is huge, I’m getting way more in touch with my thirst (versus hunger) than I ever have before.
My energy levels have completely evened out and I’m adjusted to grazing throughout the day instead of eating three to five smaller meals.
I’ve been weighing myself a bit too much (as in every single morning) but the scale continues to be my friend and is showing off my hard work by revealing a number each time that is smaller than the day before. However, I know being number obessed isn’t healthy, so I promise not to weigh myself again until next Wednesday. In fact, knowing that I’m not going to weigh myself for that many days in a row is kind of exciting! Who knows what number will pop up?! Not me! It could be anything!(Anything lower than it was this morning, that is, because I am absolutely going to keep this up!!)
Yesterday I did my ab workout but instead of doing 10 reps of each move, I bumped it up to 15. Because I’m badass like that.
Today after work I’m going to do cardio for the first time since being Paleo CookingCaveman style. My energy is good enough that I feel confident in my ability to do so. Before this, I felt too weak or lightheaded to attempt cardio - but today it ison like donkey kong.
I can’t wait!
A bit of honesty here: over the last eight months I slowly was gaining weight. And gaining. And gaining. A teeny bit one week. A teeny bit more another week… until I put back on almost all that I originally lost.
I wasn’t happy this was happening, as it was happening. And I could see it was happening in the way my body was slowly changing but I couldn’t find the willpower to stop it. Food is SO good, people, and I am really and truly a foodie.
But why was it that suddenly I was gaining when I had previously been able to balance eating good food and still lose weight? I had to ask myself.
One reason was that I got distracted. I was so happy in my love life (still am, thankyouverymuch), family life and incredibly busy with my new career. I was indulging left and right, a glass of wine here, an office lunch a few times a week, Belgian french fries at this new ohsofantastic restaurant that opened downtown, and of course date nights with my love that included bread baskets happened, too. I felt I looked curvy and great (and I still do… I just don’t feel my very best).
But mainly it was because I was tired of friends and family who read this blog mostly talking to me about weight-related issues when we’d hang out. (I’m not an expert, honestly. And this isn’t my only hobby. I just read, researched for myself and applied some stuff… and it happened to work!)
Upon recent reflection, I realize that I sabotoged myself so that I would no longer be the “go to” person. I don’t like that much attention to be paid to me. I don’t have all the answers and no matter what I do I can’t motivate anyone who doesn’t want to be motivated. I got tired of giving advice to people who then didn’t apply it but had the nerve to complain to me about how my advice wasn’t working. It was exasperating trying to solve their dilemmas when I was still struggling with the day-to-day balance for myself.
I was beginning to feel responsible for other people’s successes or failures - and I shouldn’t. I can’t. I can’t take on the world’s problems like they are my own. I realize that this is my weakness, and not the fault of others, and that I shoulder more blame than I should in many areas of my life - but that’s been me so far and the only way to break patterns is to address them.
I know now that I can only truly better myself. So that’s what’s happening this time around. I’m re-applying myself with a specific goal and a specific time frame in mind and I’m focusing on ME. I’ve got to motivate myself however I feel is best. Whether that is pictures of women’s bodies I think are beautiful, reading articles I find helpful, seeing a quote that epitomizes how I feel that day - it doesn’t matter.
I’m not doing this for you - I’m doing this for me - and after just a week and a half of focus I’m already on fire!
Food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food food.
That’s all I can think about as I suck down my water. Shrink a little, ginormous Stomach, just a little. All you ever want to do is eat eat eat everything in sight.
I’m not even hungry - I just want to eat!
But at least I have an amazing dinner waiting for me tonight: a simmering pot of Mexican chicken and red chilis that have been slow-cooking all day. I’d love to share the recipe, but it’s not mine: it’s Chippy’s. Oh, and rice. And homemade tortillas. And possibly squash.
For those of you who are interested, I’m “going” Paleo the way CookingCaveman did when he started. I’m not going to go into it too much because I’m no expert but if you’re interested, go ahead and ask him about it - he’s happy to share his knowledge.
And CookingCaveman: I’m so looking forward to my FEAST tonight!!
So on Sunday night, for the first time, I did.
I’ve never mentioned this before but I suffer from psoriasis, mainly on my hairline but also sometimes onto my temples. After one night of using 100% organic virgin coconut oil on my skin, the symptoms of my psoriasis are gone. Not sort-of gone. Not easing. Not healing. My symptoms are GONE.
After two nights, the skin on my face feels like a baby’s butt (sans diaper rash). So smooth!
As a lover of all things coconut, I can’t get over how good it smells and how great it feels on my skin! Oh, and at $8.99 for a jar of it at Trader Joes, the price can’t be beat. I don’t mean to get all “buy this miracle product” on you, but you’ve got to try this for yourself!
I can’t wait to slather my entire body in coconut oil just to see what happens. In fact, I think that’ll be my project tonight.
..since I started Paleo last week and I wasnt even 100% Paleo this weekend, either.
No, I wont be doing regular weigh ins, and no, there wont be numbers shared when I do. I’m just impressed I lost anything at all! Whoo!
My activity Saturday was a 2.5 mile walk; Sunday a 4.5 mile hike and one set of my ab routine.
Today after work I’ll do abs, lunges, squats and possibly some sprints if it’s not raining like it is now.
Five weeks left till Memorial Day weekend!